Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Psalm 23:4
My name is Beth and this is my journey through mental illness and the faith that allows me to continue that journey.
The name of my blog, Beth’s Obedience, may seem odd to many of you. I’d like to take a moment and explain how it came about. When I first started this blog it was 2016. I had had my first experiences with Major Depression and hospitalization. At the time I was also in a wonderful faith community and had doctors who were a strong support physically. I prayed about what was happening to me and how I could make sense of it. The answer I got was more of a challenge. I was led to not hide, but share what I was going through and how God’s presence made a difference. I was led to Obedience. This is a hard word and one that most people don’t like to hear. It doesn’t mean you excuse yourself from rational thought or responsibility. For me it was a whisper, being shown a way to redeem all that I was going through. So, I chose obedience and I hope that choice may make a difference in the lives of others.
I am actually moving this blog from another host in hopes that it will get more visibility. I’m writing about my experiences as a mental health patient who also happens to love the Lord with her heart and soul. This has been the difference in my journey of recovery. I’m hoping that this blog will be a source of hope to those going through what I have. The mental health system, while it has its uses and strengths, does not recognize faith often. To me, my faith has been essential in getting me through the black times and keeping me focused during the light.
July 2, 2025 2 Corinthians 1:3-5 NIV. Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. My boy Roland…
June 8, 2025 Hello! It has been so long since I’ve written. Life has been changing in a myriad of ways. I can’t go through them all now. This post is a place holder for me, so I don’t forget about my project, my life and God’s place in them both. God is good, and…
Sometimes writing seriously can be draining as well as being a release. Today I just want to say Happy New Year! I am recovering from COVID again, 3rd time, but I feel grateful that God provides kind hands, warm puppies and cats, and eventual healing. I keep telling myself that a warm cat plopped on…
December 13, 2024 I am so low today. It seems like a week or so ago, I was excited about Christmas, traveling, and life in general. Today, I got dressed, and it felt like a victory. I’m writing because I tend to hide these days. I “shelter in place” until the storm has blown through.…
November 27, 2024 Nothing is wrong, but everything is wrong. I’m not even going through the motions today. I know what it is… I am better for awhile and then I am not again. Time is narrowed to a moment at a time. I won’t give in to it, the darkness, the monster. Tomorrow is…
November 21, 2024 So much has gone on this fall, I can’t believe it is almost Thanksgiving! I’ve been going in a million directions, and trying to stop, center myself, and sort out what is most important in each moment. I’m not always great at it, but I’m not sure I know anyone who is.…
Sept 5, 2024 “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with Me.” Revelation 3:20 I had a very interesting and revealing meeting with one of my therapists today. We were discussing the goals I’ve…
I feel purposeless today. I get ideas for plans I can accomplish in my house, but I don’t have the strength to do them alone.. So I’m blocked and frustrated. God grant me the wisdom to stop and see that I am not being frustrated in my purpose, rather being invited in a different direction…
My friend has a new job and is moving soon. I know that I shouldn’t be jealous, but I am. I can look at the situation logically and know that the circumstances causing her to take a new job aren’t ideal, but it doesn’t stop me from being envious. I have looked at others idealistically…
I have struggled lately, seriously struggled. For no reason I can fathom, the depression has pressed down on me, black and ugly like molasses. I haven’t fought it much. I’ve tried to dress every day, but other than that I have just sat with myself and the warped perspective I have of myself. I think…
Beth's Obedience 
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